Inside I'm screaming 'I love you'

Monday, July 25, 2005

I'm sick & tired of everything, now it's time to show a little attitude.

I typed a whole chuck of shiat & now it disappeared. !#!#!# I realised I've been showing a lot of attitude this few days. I don't know why either. I supposed it was the stress I'm feeling & all. Seriously, I don't feel good. Well, my attitude is a little worse to some people. You know I really dont know who is she now. Like a total stranger to me.I seriously can't stand the way she act cute in front of bungs, flirt around with them (eeks), keep telling them shiat over & over again. It's totally sick lah ok. She must go around telling the whole world she got something we don't have from bungs. -rolls eyes. Who the hell is she? Omg, I really don't know her. Sigh well life sucks.

School has been rather a disaster. I'm feeling so stressed up over stupids things, stupid people. Sometimes I rather keep things to myself than to tell it to someone. Ugh whatever I don't know what am I thinking. School, life that sucks, people around & crazy thing called _ _ _ _. I don't know.

School's stressing me up a lot. CT is just a week away, in fact I feel as though it's waving to me now ): I haven't really get my mood right & study yet. I'm still thinking of what I wanna do AFTER CT ends. If I don't do well for this CT, buddy's gonna ignore me & daddy's not gonna give me both the monehh & the hotel room on my birthday for my well-planned bday bash! ): RAH! & art's storyboard. Date due on friday. Miss Teh is gonna kill me if I do not have it done. RAH! & tmr's maths test ): I don't even know what the hell is the topic about! I did pay attention ok, I REALLY DID. But I don't know what she talking about! Ok I'll study later. Yeah I will, I have to! RAH!

What's going on in my life now? I ought to be happy yknow. I don't know lah, I don't wanna talk about it.

Friends come & go. She came & left me. I'm glad, really. But one thing, she changed a lot.(different person from the top aye) She became someone I don't know. Ok well I really don't know her. She wasn't the her I used to know. She hold grudges so bad now. Sigh I don't know. I don't wanna bother :\

_ _ _ _.
Everytime I try, you let go. So the next time I won't try, so you won't have to let go. Be that way ok.

Two words for you; SHUT UP.
You ought to know when to.
But sadly you do not.

This has gone on so long
I realize that I need
Something good to rely on
Something for me

Sigh ):

; stick with you